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What Harry Wants (H/D, 14A)

Title: What Harry Wants
Author: sesheta_66
Word Count: 1279
Rating: 14A for language and implied sex
Warning: No beta. Please point out any mistakes you see.
A/N: This is a birthday fic for mtranc3. She asked for protective!Draco and Harry in a self-indulgent mood. I don't know if this is exactly what you had in mind, but I hope you like it!
Disclaimer: HP world belongs to JK Rowling. No money made by me - I am only playing.

"Oi, ferret-boy!"

"Ron, would you stop with the insults?" Harry pleaded.

"What? I'm not insulting you, just your ... er ... just Malfoy."

"Well, don't you think ..."

"Malfoy, you stupid git, get out here!"

Harry stormed out of the room, brushing past Draco on his way. A quickly mumbled, "I can't take this any more," left little doubt in Draco's mind as to what he was upset about. This had to stop, and Draco was going to do his best to see that it did. He had already been trying for weeks to be good around Weasley, but the stupid git wouldn't let up. Well, it was time for drastic measures, because he couldn't have anyone hurting Harry, even if it was his best mate.

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"You realize that you are effectively asking him to choose between the two of us, right?" Draco had tried reasoning, had tried to explain Harry's growing frustration, and how much their continued arguing was affecting Harry, but he didn't seem to want to listen.

"He'll choose me," Ron said emphatically.

"Are you sure about that?"

"Of course I'm sure. You're just a passing fancy. We've been best mates since we were eleven years old. As I recall, he hated you then."

"That may very well be true, Weaselby, but what difference does that make?"

"It makes all the difference in the world. He'll choose me. I'm sure of it."

Draco let out an exasperated sigh. "And what good does that do Harry?"

"It rids him of you."

"What makes you so sure that's best for him?"

"Oh, please. As if you'd ever be good for him."

"In your opinion."

"In my opinion, yes."

"Do you not think that Harry has his own opinion? That he can make up his own mind?"

"Of course I do."

"Then let him."

"Oh, no you don't. You don't go trying to get my help."

"Who said anything about your help? I just want you to let up on Harry."

"On Harry? Sure you do. You mean you. You just want me to let up on you. You just want to dig your claws in deeper, and not have any resistance from me. I know what you're after."

"Oh do tell! What am I after, besides Harry's happiness, and my own?"

"His happiness, right. You wouldn't know about anyone's happiness but your own."

"You're wrong about that. But even if you weren't, let's say that my happiness is attained in the same way Harry's is. Why can't you accept that it is at least a possibility?"

"Why should I?"

"Because you claim to be his friend." He waited for a retort. When none was forthcoming, he continued. "It's not about you, you know. I am not with Harry to piss you off, though I'm sure you think that's a big part of it. I am with him because I enjoy being with him. I care about him. Surely you can understand that, if you really do care as much as you tell everyone you do."

"I don't believe you."

"And I don't care what you believe."

"Of course you do, or we wouldn't be having this conversation."

"That's where you're wrong. I don't give a flying fuck what you think of me. Truly, I don't. But I very much care about what you say. Because every time you say something negative about me, it hurts Harry."

"Oh, don't think so highly of yourself. You don't matter that much."

"You know, Weasleby, that may very well be true. And congratulations to you for figuring it out if it is. In the meantime, in case you hadn't noticed, Harry left here decidedly unhappy. As a direct result of something you said. About me. Doesn't that tell you something?" He levelled a look at Ron, hoping that perhaps he could see the wheels spinning in his head, and be able to tell when they stopped moving, as the cogs fell into place. When he received no response, he carried on.

"Look, if Harry is destined to move on to someone else, no doubt someone better than me in your mind, then let it happen. I should think that even you will figure out that he might just dig his heels in to prove you wrong. Why not simply let things happen? Right now it seems to me that you are treating him like an uncooperative child. You are telling him what is best for him, and you are trying to push away anyone else that gets close. Most especially me."

"Only you."

"And why is that?"

"Because I hate you."

"But Harry doesn't. Don't you get it? He has his own mind, makes his own decisions, is his own man. You let your own assumptions about Harry almost ruin your friendship all those years ago, during the Triwizard Tournament ..."

"How do you know what happened between us then?"

"Wake up, would you! We talk, you know. It's not just about a good shag, or even a great shag, as the case may be ..."

"Argh! I didn't need to hear that!"

"Apparently you did. We are in a relationship, you stupid twit, and we talk. We talk about our pasts, our futures, our hopes, our dreams, our feelings. I know far more about Harry and his feelings than you care to know about, and do you know why that is?"

"Oh, I'm sure you're going to tell me! I can't wait to hear this one!"

"Because we care about each other. We respect each other's opinions. We don't just talk at one another -- we listen. And when I listen to Harry getting upset about something, I do whatever I can to lessen or eliminate the cause. Because I hate to see him hurting, and when we fight, he hurts. Haven't you noticed that I haven't risen to your challenges, taunts, or jibes lately? It's been weeks, Weasley, and you haven't even noticed. And you call yourself his friend?"

By the look on Ron's face, Draco thought he may finally have broken through. He hoped he did, because he didn't want to force a choice for Harry. Either way, Harry would lose. Sure, Ron or Draco would be the bigger loser in the situation. After all, it would be Harry that they lost, and Draco felt ill at the mere thought. But Harry would be hurt too. As it was, keeping his best friend and his boyfriend separated caused a strain, but having them in the same room was worse.

"Weasley, I don't want Harry to have to choose between us. No matter the choice he makes, he will be hurt. I can't be the cause of that. Don't you think he's had enough pain in his life? Why should he, of all people, have to suffer any more? Don't you think he is worth it? Don't you think that the two of us should be able to put aside whatever differences we have -- petty or otherwise -- and be mature adults, for Harry's sake? He doesn't ask for much, but this is really important to him. I think it's the least we can do, don't you?"

With that, Draco left. There was, after all, nothing more to be said. He only hoped that Ron had actually heard him. Harry deserved that and more. Besides, he was truly unsure of what Harry's choice would be, if it came down to that, though he suspected that Ron was right. And now that he finally found someone to love that loved him back, Draco wasn't prepared to risk losing him. No matter what, he'd have to make the weasel see.

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Aw Draco that was extremely fluffy of you not to mention Gryffindor-ish. Are you feeling well, love? *checks for a fever*

I dunno. *re-reads* I've written fluffier stuff lately. Okay, maybe not in the boardgame.

She asked for self-indulgent!Harry and protective!Draco. The first attempt (which I completed, hated, and scrapped) ended up being crack-ish (Harry preening over how gorgeous his own arse looked in a particularly nice outfit Draco had bought him), because I couldn't do justice to the self-indulgent!Harry thing ... so I made it all into a teasing sort-of prank ... with Ron on the receiving end. Bah! It was awful. Truly it was. Concept was good, and the one scene was amusing, but then it just went flat. Then this 'moderately' self-indulgent (feeling a wee bit sorry for himself because he has to put up with the BS) Harry came out. Not as self-indulgent, but much better overall.

Fever ... no. Over-exhaustion ... perhaps. Angst withdrawal ... definitely.

*smooches you & heads to bed*

By the way ... just curious ... do you EVER sleep?

No, and I regret that sometimes. Like today. I haven't gone to sleep yet and I'm at the point where I may cry if I don't soon. I had too much chocolate earlier and was on a wicked bad sugar rush until about 3:30. *frowns*

*nudges you*

Step away from the computer ... go on now, it won't hurt ... slowly, that's it!

But its 5:30. If I go bed now, I won't be up again until 4:30 maybe 5 tonight. And I have an essay to write(which I really don't want to) and and and...yeah I'll prolly go to bed in another 15 minutes...maybe...and then I can maybe get up at 11:50...maybe and then get late breakfast and maybe do notecards and email the reference librarian and....

Awwww. I love protective!Draco. Can I keep him for myself? Pleeeease? *grins*

Um ... I think Harry might object. He's pretty possessive, in case you hadn't heard.

Thanks for reading & commenting. ♥

Stand back, I need some room to get a really good swing in here.

*draws back...waaaaay back*

*THWAPS Ron*

That should help. *dusts hands off*

Ouch! That'll leave a mark. Thanks ♥

Ahahaha! :D *cheers for you*

Honestly, I'm not sure either of who Harry would choose. I have this feeling he'd choose Ron because he's like his family, and family is for ever.

Good thing Draco was there to try to make Ron understand. Maybe in a sequel we'll discover if he actually listened?

Sequel? Did you say sequel? Yeesh! That would be number 10 on my sequels list! Ah, well.

I have a feeling I know who Harry would choose, if he had to. It would be a difficult decision either way.

Gah! Stupid Ron, that stubborn prat - I just want to hit him sometimes. Mmm... I noticed

enchanted_jae did that for me. *grins*

Your Draco is wonderful, and you had the protective side down pat! :D

Thank you. I'm glad you liked my Draco in this. It felt good to write him less emotional and more practical with Ron, not letting Ron guide him back into a duel.

RON!!! *nostrils flare*

Thank god Harry is also loved by people with more than one brain cell! *pets Draco*

Awww ... poor Ron. He had a few more than one brain cell, I think. ;D

Yes, Draco is a sweetie (and mature) in this one.

"Weasley, I don't want Harry to have to choose between us. No matter the choice he makes, he will be hurt. I can't be the cause of that. Don't you think he's had enough pain in his life? Why should he, of all people, have to suffer any more? Don't you think he is worth it? Don't you think that the two of us should be able to put aside whatever differences we have -- petty or otherwise -- and be mature adults, for Harry's sake? He doesn't ask for much, but this is really important to him. I think it's the least we can do, don't you?"

So Much Love!!! *cuddles

sesheta_66*

Thank you sweety, that's exactly what I had in mind! :) I love, love, love Draco in this! <3 I like it when Harry's Gryffindor-ism rubs off on him :D And the banter in the beginning between him and Ron was priceless! XD Talking about Ron, he thinks he knows what's good for Harry, but sometimes he can be such a block-head! Ts ts...

I do think it'd be immensely unfair to make Harry choose, and as Draco suspected, Harry would probably choose Ron, making both Draco and himself unhappy in the process... *pats Draco*

Thank you so much dear for indulging me and writing this! ^_^

*wubs you*

Whew! I am soooo relieved, because my first attempt was rubbish & I chucked it in favour of this (that's the main reason you got it a day late ... I wanted it to be good, rather than just on time).

that's exactly what I had in mind! *does happy dance* Oh, I'm so glad.

You are welcome, and I hope you had a great birthday & weekend.

*cuddles & wubs you back* ♥

*grin* Draco was fluffy, but not in a bad way - I felt for him when he was trying to make Ron see sense.

Nice one sweets x

*grins back* Thanks. Yeah, I couldn't see him being too fluffy (or whiny), but he did have to express his feelings a bit to get through to Ron.

You did closed minded Ron so well, I want to shake him until his head falls off. Hopefully Harry will help to soothe Draco's private concerns.

Thanks so much ♥

I'm glad that people are aggravated by Ron, which of course was my intent. Glad that it came across well.

I sure hope Harry will be able to help Draco with his insecurities.

Harry would choose Draco. Who could give up that arse?

I like that he was fluffy but you threw in that bit of self-preservation at the end.

Thanks. ♥

Harry would choose Draco. Who could give up that arse? *cracks up* Indeed.

This was good. I'm not sure Ron will understand on Draco';s first try though. Poor Harry. At least Draco is trying his best for Hary's sake. Because of this, I think Harry would pick Draco.

I would pick Draco, but I'm not Harry. Thanks for reading & commenting.

How wonderfully, heartwrenchingly angsty and painful and raw!!!!

I have died.

*brings you back to life and squishes you*

Thanks - glad you liked.

That was wonderful! Hope Ron get his head out of his arse!

Let's hope so!

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